Selfish

Seems like this time I agree with her.. Not everything should be shared I guess.. Those feelings maybe better hidden.. But these insecurities become piles of unhealthy feelings.. Should I stay like this, become secretive or should I talk about it.. Everything is a mess but I still want to face it with u even I know at the end either of us can get hurt.. Am I being selfish?
#iamfullwiththenegativefeelings

Sick😢

Sometimes when I feeling down,
I want to see you,
I want to hold you,
I want to get angry at you,
I want to be spoiled by you

Seem like when I got sick
I want you to drop all the things that you do
And pampered me with your love
Taking care of me gently and lovingly
Sing a lullaby for me until I fall asleep
But it's impossible for those things to happen
Because we live our life differently
Because you are so far away and busy
Because I don't want to trouble you
Because I feel like I'm burdening you

All those negative feeling contrast to what I want from you but why I still hope for those things even I know it will be impossible. So I'm here, writing my own frustration and desires because I can't tell you all of it.. I don't want to be a burden..

#sickmakemefeelweird
#sickmakememissyou
#sickmakemeweak

I wish and I will

Today is the day I will nver forget..my dearest one look so fragile..I never knew this day will come..if I can take the pain..I will..

I only wish that I can be strong for my dad n my family..Ya Allah..kurangkan la kesakitan bapaku..kasihi la dia kerana sesunguhnya ENGKAU maha Penyayang dan Pengasih..Allahuma Amin

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Sekuat mana pun angin bertiup
Tidak akan berterbangan rindu ini
Seterik mana pun bahang matahati
Tidak akan terbakar rentung sayang ini

Aku hanya seorang perempuan
Yang selalu ingin disayangi dan dihargai
Namun aku tak perlu sayang ajnabi itu
Kalau ajanabi itu bukannya kamu

Bukan aku ingin melawan takdir
Tapi saat ini hanya kamu yang kuingini
Biar pun ku tau untuk bersamamu
Bukanlah suatu perkara yang mudah

Andai saat itu tiba kelak
Akan ku belajar untuk lepaskan
Lepaskan apa yang bukan akan jadi milikku
Lepaskan apa yang tak mampu ku pertahankan

Ragam manusia

Kdang2 trdetik dalam hati..megapa perlu pentingkan diri sekiranya boleh memudahkn keja or beban org lain..tpi kini ku sedar bahawa manusia ni pelbagai ragam..maybe their selfishness yg mmbuatkan mereka berbeza drpd org lain kn..

human is special becuz they had brains and feeling compare to other living things..so as a human being why we don't use our mind and follow our heart wisely..sometimes be selfless but jgn la sampai memudaratkan diri sndri..we need to love ourselves first before we can love others..

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Detik-detik berlalu bagaikan mengerti
Erti sarat rindu yang tersimpan
Setiap langkah diambil bagaikan memahami
Makna sayang yang tak terungkap

Andai aku mampu mengungkapkannya
Pasti semua itu tidak terjadi
Andai aku mampu buat kau mengerti
Pasti bahagia itu masih ada

Kini hanya doa mampu ku titipkan
Saat dirimu hadir dalam ingatan
Hanya senyuman mampu ku ukirkan
Saat aku merindui memori itu

its been a long time

salam...

lama dh tak post sini kan...xda msa yang mngizinkan tuk gue mencurahkan idea dh skg..but now i want to try tumblr..seem mcm ok ja kn..haha..buang tabiat jap..btw i wish all readers hve wonderful time in their life..bless u all..sampai ketemu ag..;-)