Selfish

Seems like this time I agree with her.. Not everything should be shared I guess.. Those feelings maybe better hidden.. But these insecurities become piles of unhealthy feelings.. Should I stay like this, become secretive or should I talk about it.. Everything is a mess but I still want to face it with u even I know at the end either of us can get hurt.. Am I being selfish?
#iamfullwiththenegativefeelings

Sick😢

Sometimes when I feeling down,
I want to see you,
I want to hold you,
I want to get angry at you,
I want to be spoiled by you

Seem like when I got sick
I want you to drop all the things that you do
And pampered me with your love
Taking care of me gently and lovingly
Sing a lullaby for me until I fall asleep
But it's impossible for those things to happen
Because we live our life differently
Because you are so far away and busy
Because I don't want to trouble you
Because I feel like I'm burdening you

All those negative feeling contrast to what I want from you but why I still hope for those things even I know it will be impossible. So I'm here, writing my own frustration and desires because I can't tell you all of it.. I don't want to be a burden..

#sickmakemefeelweird
#sickmakememissyou
#sickmakemeweak

I wish and I will

Today is the day I will nver forget..my dearest one look so fragile..I never knew this day will come..if I can take the pain..I will..

I only wish that I can be strong for my dad n my family..Ya Allah..kurangkan la kesakitan bapaku..kasihi la dia kerana sesunguhnya ENGKAU maha Penyayang dan Pengasih..Allahuma Amin

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Sekuat mana pun angin bertiup
Tidak akan berterbangan rindu ini
Seterik mana pun bahang matahati
Tidak akan terbakar rentung sayang ini

Aku hanya seorang perempuan
Yang selalu ingin disayangi dan dihargai
Namun aku tak perlu sayang ajnabi itu
Kalau ajanabi itu bukannya kamu

Bukan aku ingin melawan takdir
Tapi saat ini hanya kamu yang kuingini
Biar pun ku tau untuk bersamamu
Bukanlah suatu perkara yang mudah

Andai saat itu tiba kelak
Akan ku belajar untuk lepaskan
Lepaskan apa yang bukan akan jadi milikku
Lepaskan apa yang tak mampu ku pertahankan

Ragam manusia

Kdang2 trdetik dalam hati..megapa perlu pentingkan diri sekiranya boleh memudahkn keja or beban org lain..tpi kini ku sedar bahawa manusia ni pelbagai ragam..maybe their selfishness yg mmbuatkan mereka berbeza drpd org lain kn..

human is special becuz they had brains and feeling compare to other living things..so as a human being why we don't use our mind and follow our heart wisely..sometimes be selfless but jgn la sampai memudaratkan diri sndri..we need to love ourselves first before we can love others..

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Detik-detik berlalu bagaikan mengerti
Erti sarat rindu yang tersimpan
Setiap langkah diambil bagaikan memahami
Makna sayang yang tak terungkap

Andai aku mampu mengungkapkannya
Pasti semua itu tidak terjadi
Andai aku mampu buat kau mengerti
Pasti bahagia itu masih ada

Kini hanya doa mampu ku titipkan
Saat dirimu hadir dalam ingatan
Hanya senyuman mampu ku ukirkan
Saat aku merindui memori itu

its been a long time

salam...

lama dh tak post sini kan...xda msa yang mngizinkan tuk gue mencurahkan idea dh skg..but now i want to try tumblr..seem mcm ok ja kn..haha..buang tabiat jap..btw i wish all readers hve wonderful time in their life..bless u all..sampai ketemu ag..;-)

Bintang, Bulan, Matahari

usah mnjdi bintang andai hati tak kuat
usah mnjadi matahari jika sinaran tak terpancar
usah mnjadi bulan andai jiwa tak tenang
kerana ia akan memakan mu

bintang, bulan, matahari
tidak bisa digapai tnpa resolusi yg tinggi
tidak bisa disentuh tnpa azam membara
kerana ia sangat berharga

yakin itu perlu ada
semangat perlu membara
jiwa kena menjadi jitu
untuk mengapai keindahan
bintang, bulan dan matahari

setiap titik usaha perlu
tabah itu perlu tinggi
ketahanan diri perlu mantap
agar kau tidak sesat
dalam mengapai keindahan

Daylight

bila dgar lagu daylight..terasa nk tulis something based on dat song..somehow i'm afraid this happen to us..so i adapt this song..

why i am holding on
even though i knew this day will come
but i never thought it will be this fast
seem like the time won't give us another
chance

it seem unreal when i know this time
is the last time we will be together
why this perfection slip away
this is too hard for us 
because we will be memories soon

holding u tightly for the last time
staring at our perfect hands
make my heart shatter into pieces
because i know this is for the last time

why time can't be slow down
why things happen so fast
i don't want to wake up anymore
because i'm afraid u will gone 
when i open my eyes

crying silently because i don't want 
to make it harder for us
let the night swallow this pain
let the day heal this pain

#Human#Special

I don’t understand how human mind work. There are many things that they can do to avoid problem and drama but still they choose to be problematic and dramatic. Live is so simple because we just need to have faith in God, love ur family and friends. Accept love from other and don’t disturb others life. It just simple like that but why people cannot do that? I have been wondering these questions since then but now I know the answer. God create human different from each other. There are people who act violently, saying sarcastic thing to others, be gentle toward other and many more. Those different type of people actually were the one who determine what type of world we live in. If we surrounded by positive people, we will have better perspective about world or other people and vice versa. However, we can change all of it if we had determination to do it. Dertemine people are most powerful person because they know what they want. These traits are only can found in human because we had brain and feelings that help us think about ourselves or c=action that we take. That’s why human are special being.

Kelam

Bintang bersinar indah di langit
Namun megapa kelam ku rasai
Bulan cantik beradu di sana
Namun megapa kelam di sini

Jiwa semakin kacau
Hati semakin resah
Diri semakin keliru
Kerana kelam meliputi ku

Kelam itu musuhku
Namun ia saja setia bersamaku
Sedangkan bahagia selalu meninggalkan ku sendirian

Jiwang sering bertanya
Hati sering mengingati
Diri sering berkata
Kelam itu musuhku
Tapi kenapa sekarang ia mnjadi teman di sampingku
kenapa ia sekarang membuatku sedar yg bahagia itu hanya dusta

You

I wonder what my name is.

Then u came n remind me who I am.

You always keep me unbalance

Making me smile n laugh only with just words

But I wonder how long u going to stay with me

Then I wonder,

If I said your name

Will u ever hear me?

If I ask u to leave

Will u able to leave me?

Did u know?

I never meant to fall for u

But I want u for myself

U challenge me n  change me

But I don’t care

Those rules were broken

Only when I found u

But still I don’t care

Because now u are mine

Let it be our secret

Let it be our lasting love

Let us be together

Without any limits

Budak zaman skg

Salam ceria kpd smua...

Hari nie aku sgt pnat..spend most of time bntu fmily brniaga..nak dijadikan citer..time brniaga tu aku ternampak plbagai gelagat mnusia..ada yg sempoi..ada yg cerewet..ada yg gigih brusaha n ada jg yg ska buat keja mudah..

Tapi yg pling mnarik minat aku hari nie adalah cara pmakaian bdak2 skg..sopan dh..lengan pnjang n pkai skirt labuh..pkai tdung jg n siap pkai shawl.ag biar pn bru budk skola rndah..kalah gaya aku tau..cantik2 pnampilan budak skg ya..tp syg smuanya ketat2..bju lngan pnjng yg sndat..skirt yg sendat jg..smuanya sendat ar..

Parents skg nda trfkir ka kalo dorg biasakan budak2 kcil pkai pkaian mcm 2 sejak kcil pa pla akn jdi kalo mreka dh mkin dewasa??nauzubillah..tkut mkin kurang kain n ketat pkaian mreka nnt..yala..kn sjak kcil dh biasa pkai sluar fit..bjut fit..smuanya mau fit..mau tnjuk body..ish3..masi budak lgi dh mcm 2..seram jg dunia skg ya..

Kan budak2 ny umpama kain putih..parents yg tlong corakkan..bukan mau salahkn siapa2 tapi kita kena ambil langkah berjaga-jaga..kita kena didik budak2 dgn cara pemakaian yg btul sjak kcil ag..supaya mreka senang mau dilentur nnt..

Plus untk elakkan kes rogol budak2 yg smakin berleluasa zaman skg ny..jgn ar pakaikan budak2 pakaian yg mnjolok mata..yg ketat sna ketat cni..selagi kita mampu elak n kawal cara pemakaian mereka tu bgus kita buat ya..jgn gara2 namanya fesyen hukum agama pn nda dihiraukn..biar pn mreka blum baligh tp jgn lh biasakn mreka buat dosa..nnt jd tabiat pla..nauzubillah..

kalau mau ikut fsyen pn berpadah-padah ar ya..jgn sesal dhulu pndptan sesal kmudian tidak brguna..

Reflect!

Salam to u olz..

Actually kn heran ar dgn org2 yg nda henti2 kutuk pa yg org lain buat padahal dia buat benda yg sma..before talk about others better u reflect urself first..tau ar nobody perfect tp those imperfection yg jdikn kita manusia..yg mngajar kita nilai mnjadi mnusia..

Tpi bila reflect dgn diri sndri..I am one of those kind people dat always talk about others but I don't talk about things dat I also do or make..bila fikir2 balik I think it useless tuk ckp sal keburukan org lain kn..msti smua pa yg mereka buat tu ada sebab trsendiri..why we don't put ourselves in their shoes before we judge them..

So if can, I want to change..nak letakkn diri sndri kat tempat org tu sblum judge dowg..mybe they behave in that way bcuz they want attention or seek for reason to talk to other..or maybe they just bored with themselves dats whys they criticize others..

But as a reminder..kita kan tak suka org ckp buruk psal kita so jgn ar buat benda yg kita tak suka tu..its kind of irony kn bila kita ckp itu ini psal org lain padahal kita sndiri buat benda yg sma..let us change for better...remember karma will bite u back..talk badly about others & other wil talk badly about u..

Motor tu mcm bahaya ja..

Last night, my lil brther kmlgn..dy msuk hosptl dr jam 6 p.m n we got dat news around 8 p.m..yg wat kmi tmbh rsau bla dy brada dlm red zone..pas jam 10 mcm 2 bru ok..my prents sgr rsau shngga my dad col balai polis tuk mnta no tfon hisptl 2..no hosptl yg disenaraikan dlm internet tu xdpt contct pla..pelik sgt..but thnks to 1 of my frenz kt seremban..yg bgi info continuously n sudi p tnguk dy..kmi tau keadaan sbnar..allhamdulillah..slmt jg my lil brothr..

Bgi pljar yg bwa motor 2 jgn ar bwa motor seolah2 jln raya 2 mcm kmu punya kn..hati2 ar..ingt ar family yg kat uma tu..rsau sal kamu especially owg yg jauh dr fmily tu..hati2 ar..

Blogger

Rsanya nk jdi aktif blogger pla skg ny..too many things in my mind that i felt want to share with u ols..hehee

Actually bru ja experience somethng lively during my hols..1st skli tnguk live scene polis tngkap pnjaat..then next day pla nmpak pngtin pmpuan kt kwsn luar uma mcm tngu groom dy..btw dress dy cntik ny..simple but elegant..like it..

But somehow there are dramas dat i can't avoid during this hols..anyway gonna face it bcuz those things help me to bcome more mature..;)

#tired tp still need to keep it up

Express urself..^^

i wonder why people like to express themselves in internet...now i know why..sometimes what they expressed are things dat can help others u face same problem or dilemma like them..words can help others..:)

# Express urself maybe u can help other

:)

no matter how i try..i will always end up hurt someone..though i nver meant to do it..i will nver make everyone hepy at d same time..so i learn my lesson..is better for me to follow what my heart n mind said rather just listen to my heart..gonna let go things dat hurt me..life is awesome..so i want to live fullest..

Luv

i fall in luv with u bcuz u'r special in your own way..
we always fight but  we will be fine later on..
we're separated hundred miles from each other
but i know u always be my side..

when i was down, u cheer me up..
when i was lost, u hold my hand..
when i'm crying, u lend your shoulder..
that's why i know u always be my side..

i always told u that
u were the only one for me
as it true because i never find
someone special like u anymore

they said miles apart
can ruin relationship
but we never believe in it
cuz we know we were stronger
when we are together

my luv for u is not only words
that come out from my mouth
but it also word from my heart
i will never find another like u

saat hati mula gundah
perasaan curiga mula brtapak
swmakin lama semakin merebak
hati gundah gulana merobek jiwa

walau sekuat mana ku ingin hindari
ia tetap menghantui jiwa
membuatkn aku semakin payah
dalam menongkah segala cubaan

bukan ku tak pernah mencuba
tapi semakin ku cuba
semakin kuat ia bertapak
jiwa dan hati ku pula terseksa

mereka kata curiga itu racun
racun dlm hubungan
tapi megapa ia selalu wujud
walau ku tak pinta

ku berharap ia berlalu
meninggalkan aku bersendirian
agar hati dan jiwaku
boleh berasa tenang..